First Day Jitters

I don't know about you but in our house today there were some first day jitters...

... for ME!!!

The first day of school for your little one can be so daunting! There are some Mummies and Daddies out there that can be brave and KNOW that their children will be fine, but I am definitely NOT one of them! 

Over the last 2 weeks I have slowly made myself more and MORE anxious about my middle baby's first day of Prep. A million thoughts have gone through my head... What if she get's hurt and I am not there to console her, what if somebody is mean to her, How will she cope with all the NEW things that her life will entail now that she's BIG? The answer of course was FINE! I knew deep down inside that she would be fine and YES there were tears and NOT just from me... as I went to leave she started getting teary and gave me a big cuddle and took those 'I'm-doing-the-silent-cry' breaths and I felt my own tears welling BUT I put my big girl knickers on and gave her a kiss and an extra squeeze and told her she would be fine and quickly snuck from the class room stifling my tears just long enough to make it out the door! 

Then of course I bawled!!

I bawled like a baby and as I walked out of the prep room I locked red puffy eyes with another 'cry baby' mumma and gave her a smile and said 'I'm glad I'm not the only one' :) But there were lots of Mummies and Daddies who had that tell tale red nose or who's eyes were strategically hidden behind sunglasses. I worried that my little girl would have separation anxiety but deep down I think it was ME I was worried about... me and MY separation anxiety! 

As a parent we have these tiny special bundles whom we grow SO very attached to that we truly feel they are PART of us... attached with heart strings right to our very soul! When it comes time to let them be BIG and become independent it feels as if we are losing a part of ourselves that little funny part of us and we realise just how quickly time passes by and that that tiny little person is growing up!

The next part of their journey however is AMAZING to watch....

All of a sudden that little person GROWS UP, they become more opinionated, they learn things YOU haven't taught them and they amaze you with NEW things everyday!

The bitter sweet event of first days at school, the tears that come knowing your baby's growing up, the pride you feel knowing they did a whole day without you... It's all part of being a parent... the toughest gig in the world!

And you know what?

I don't mind being the 'cry baby' mumma, the one with the puffy eyes and rudolf nose... as long as I make it out the door every time!

P.s Sunny Mummy had a WONDERFUL post today that EVERY school mummy and daddy should read! You can find it HERE!